i came across with this person blog/fb, and i admire his art work even though it may look simple. i hope he don't mind me sharing his piece of work in my blog







credit to : http://zackzukhairi.blogspot.com/

i know that this movie has been around for ages but i never really care enough to watch it until recently when our respective psychiatrist lecturer, Prof Najib encouraged us to watch it so that we can relate it to what we're going to learn in psychiatry posting and also to make us appreciate more about mental illness when seeing psychiatry patient later. Frankly speaking i LOVE LOVE the movie..this movie is based on true story where John Forbes Nash, Jr. (born June 13, 1928) is a mathematician and also nobel prize winner who has SCHIZOPHRENIA (one of the psychiatry illness).



summary :
A biopic of the meteoric rise of John Forbes Nash Jr., a math prodigy able to solve problems that baffled the greatest of minds. And how he overcame years of suffering through schizophrenia to win the Nobel Prize.

comments :

- i'm touch by the love and faith shown by John Nash's wife, ALICIA and i couldn't imagine whether i can be that strong in the future, if i ever get married one day.
- i have two uncle with schizophrenia and they are not that hardcore one, they still consume their medications. even with the illness, somehow one of my uncle really get well with children and kids love them and the most touching part would be they take care of my grandparents as they are still living with them (my mother would always say that 'ha tgk tue org yg kurang sihat boleh jaga baba and abib tapi org yg sihat tak dpt nk jaga sgt').
- my neighbour also has schizophrenia and guess what? she's a lecturer for engineering in UTM. this shows that there's no barrier towards achieving your success in life.

- the community are still lack of exposure towards mental illness and there are actually ways to control some of the mental illness before it's become worse.

- do NOT call those people with mental illness --> orang GILA..we must remember that most of us have the possibility to get the illness for example every healthy living person have 1% chance to get SCHIZOPHRENIA.


Unforgettable quote from this movie :


* The Only Thing Greater Than the Power of the Mind is the Courage of the Heart

* He Saw The World In A Way No One Could Have Imagined.

* I need to believe that something extra ordinary is possible...

* It is only in the mysterious equation of love that any logical reasons can be found.

* "im here tonight only because of you, you are the reason i am, you are all my reasons (ok terharu nak nangis biler die ckp ni kat isteri die time ucapan untuk terima nobel prize)

i never ever thought that this incident today would happen to me EVER....you must be wondering what has happen to me until i said such thing right? act the story begins when i woke up this early morning (takde la early mane pun act kul 9.20 camtu).....sedang aku nak bukak pintu kete prakkkk kunci aku jatuh lalu tebukak tpt yg nak tekan2 tue. haish bertuah betul tgn aku ni pegang kunci pun dah tak larat ker agaknyer..then tetibe time dah nk start kan kete tue jeng jeng jeng "aik pahal plak tak leh start nie??? ok takpe2 sabar aliah, kiter cuber lagi skali ye (pesanan : ini hanyalah monolog dalaman yer)...pastu cube cube lagi takleh.."aik camner ni zue (kebetulan zue nk tumpang), kete takleh start laa, camner nak gi kelas?? kte tumpang shashu jer la (seb baik shashu tak gi lagi kalau tau mau merangkak aku pi kelas)..

then sepanjang hari aku tak tenang asyik terpikir pasal kete jer, n the weirdest thing is i would suddenly laugh for no reason well maybe because im quite sad and stress so camni la jadiknyer (so ape name condition ni group psychiatry sekalian?? haha cepat gi revise).

to make it short, petang tue balik2 Miz S ajak gi workshop tapi sebelum gi workshop tue Miz S ader bertanyer beberapa soalan skit sbb die pun pernah mengalami incident sebegini jadi ikuti perbualan berikut :

Miz S : kete u pakai bateri ape??
me : ntah
Miz S : ape plak ntah, bateri basah ker bateri kering??
me : just stare at her and smile
Miz S : eh cepat laaa, takkan tak tau
me : errr haaaa i tau, bateri yg mcm bateri jam tue, double A
Miz S : bertuah bdak ni
me : (quite stress) mane laa i tau bateri basah ker kering, i tak pernah cek laaa, u tgk ar sndiri

so pas Miz S dah cek sume, die pun ckp bateri kering nie hurm jom pi workshop...sesampainyer di workshop kami pun berjumpe ngn sorng pekerja tue..

Org workshop tue (OWT) : yer cik?
me : erm camner ea nk ckp, kete saye takleh start
OWT : kat mane tue?
me : kat rumah, presint 14
OWT : ape yg dimaksudkan ngn takleh start tue?
me : (aiii dah macam nak clerk patient plak mamat nie) mcm saye bukak, terus mati camtu
OWT : ader bunyi aper2 tak??
me : (perghh mamat nie siap tnyer symptoms lagi) takde lah bunyi ape sgt pun
OWT : rasenyer bateri kot problem so kene tukar rasenyer
me : bape ea??
OWT : siap pasang sume rm235
me : erm okay la boleh jer laa

so time dlm kete tue, sempat la gosip ngn Miz S pasal mamat tue, mula2 ayat Miz S tue camni ea :

Miz S : aih tak hensem plak mamat tue
me : weh puasa laa, ape laa
Miz S : hehe
me : tapi kan die bwk merc tue hehe ape lagi
Miz S : ape gune kaya harta tapi budi bahasa blum tntu lagi
me : BELAHHHHHHHHH :D
Miz S : hahahaha

then bile dah sampai rumah, mamat tue pun start la check2 kete aku tue smbil diperhatikan oleh kami berdua dan gak ktrg bual2 (aih peramah mamat nie)..

Miz S : bateri tahan bape lame ea slalunyer??
OWT : setahun too setahun setengah laa camtu
Miz S n me : owhhh ic
OWT : kete ni dah bape lame?
me : setahun gak la


so bile die dah tukar bateri baru die pun try lagi start enjin tapi takleh gak hidup then die pun berhenti sejenak lalu tgk kunci kete aku kat tgn die n lalu bertanyer kan...

OWT : kunci ni ader jatuh ker??
me : ader (pikir ape kaitan kunci ngn takleh start kete hurm)
OWT : bile yer?
me : ha tadi, ha sblm kete tue takleh start la...eh camner awak tau(soalan apekah)??
OWT : takde saye tgk kunci ni ade selotape(camni ker eja die ha??)
me : owhhhh
OWT : jatuh kat mane yer??
me : kat sini lah
OWT : ader tak....(sebelum sempat die tanye aku jwb)
me : haaa ader satu benda ni tapi tak tau la bnda dlm kunci tue ker tak (lalu masuk dlm kete n amik satu bnda yg looks like a chip)
OWT : HAAA, benda tue mmg kene ade dlm kunci tue
Miz S: ape tue??
OWT :bnd tue mcm lock and safety system, kalau org duplicate kunci u pun, die tkleh start kete sbb tkde chip tue..so ni bukan masalah bateri nanti saye bukak balik bateri tue..
Miz S and me : wahhhhh pandainyer (admiring him, suddenly he looks cute to both of us hahaha)dan jugak impress sebab tetibe rase cam kete saga pun cam cool man, siap ader bnd tue lagi haha..
OWT : ha chip ni kene letak camni (smbil ajar kat aku)
me : wahhh patut laaa
OWT : dulu pun ader satu case camni, tapi org tue yg bgtau saye kunci die jatuh hehe
me : laa saye ingt takde kaitan, sume kete ader ker chip tue??
OWT : tak2, certain jer cam persona, saga camtu
me : owhh
OWT : nape tak buang ea??
me : owh sbb saye cam ader instict yg bnda tue berguna hehee
OWT : ok tue saja
me : thanx yer..

biler mamat tue dah balik..

Miz S : hensem gak kan lagi2 biler die explain tadi
me : hehe betul2 (tapi asal die panggil ak kakak ar??haishhh padahal die cam lagi tua jer, tak puas hati betul laa)





~ha yg kotak tue aderlah bateri yer rakan2(now aku tau aku nyer yg kering)~


~ni kunci yg dah terbukak tadi~


~tue adelah chip yg terkeluar tadi~


~chip yg difokuskan bagi jelas~


~ha ni adelah kedudukan chip tue okay~


well that man really impress both of us, so any man that save or help me consider as cute or handsome..he's my hero of the day hehe thnx dude...


p/s : moral of the story :

mula2 aku ingt mcm leceh laaa sume bnda ni berlaku kan tapi act byk hikmah nyer seperti :

- jgn malu bertanye
- jgn takut nk cube and buat benda baru
- use ur instinct
- kenali lah kereta serba sedikit and what not
- buka minda dan selalu jgn pandang rendah dkt pekerjaan org lain
- berterima kasih
- jangan stresss, and releks

p/s : as i scanned through my old junk of emails, i found this poem..someone sent it to me on Thursday, January 19, 2006 at 12:44 AM..



So many things happen in life,
n u smile,
People ignore u,
u smile,
They don't like u,
but u smile,
They do it again n again,
but u keep ur smile.

u aren't great as them,
u aren't wished like them,
u aren't talk like them,
still u love them,
n welcome them,
with a smile.

Time keep movin',
n u need them,
they laugh at you,
they put u aside,
n u have it all,
with a smile.

u feel alone,
u feel exhausted,
tears keep flowing,
but u hide them,
n instead, show ur lips,
carrying a smile.

......... Just keep Smile.....

the spirit and 'excited'ness just disappear....

there are times we need to look back,
to where it all began,
and look at how we can make it better,
because every chance brings possibilities,
but sometimes it takes more than that..

i came across with this clip from a friend's fb;

last night one of my best friend sent a msg (at that point i was damn sleepy and nervous as i still haven't finish studying for the next day CGP exam, cis betul) informing that his sister in law just gave birth to a baby boy.. :) happy news for his family and so dear baby boy may you always be in a pink of health and grow up to be a good muslim and khalifah :). Enjoy being cuddle and loved by everyone *wink* :)

'i'm a private person' (teka sape ckp ni,ceh hehe), meaning i don't like to share my problems and secrets or my thoughts with others. this is because i'm not good in explaining exactly how i feel to other people and sometimes it leads to misunderstanding..so i prefer to keep quite, zipp it..some of my best friends say that 'owh die ni tersirat skit'..

sometimes when i want to share my problems with :-

1. my mom; diri ni cam rasa alamak dah besar2 pun nak ngadu2 (tapi slalu jer wat :P). thanx mom !!

2. wall; kang org hantar aku pi jumpe Prof Hatta plak, pelik asal la bdk ni ckp ngn dinding hehe

3. other people/friends ; karang cakap aku ngade2 la, manje la, tak kuat la, tak tabah laa..salah ker jadi lemah skali skala??? plak tue karang biler org ckp camtu aku jadi sedih pulak..i just need them to listen to me, just lend me your ear..karang ckp ak ckp byk plak..hehe nanti end up ---> shashu2, gua cam sedih laaaa or Na, i cm stress ar or parvinnn, hurmmm i feel so sad laaa...seb bek ak ader kwn2 yg baik dan ske dengar aku cakap muahaha..tapi pape pown people dont really know what's happening inside soo

so last2 aku akan ---> nangis dlm bilik sorng2 sambil pasang citer sedih or dgr lagu sedih or time nga doa sbb bile dah nangis tue, rase cam fiuhhhh legaaa skit

act kan, ape motif aku tulis bnd2 ni??? motif nyer sbb just nak try tulis kat blog yg berwajah baru ni n cam saje jer (skati ar, it's my blog) :p

all time fav songs :-



(OMGGG hotttt nyer bf ak ni except for the ........ :p)



(much more decent and 'clean' :p)

okeh penat sungguh nak design blog ni, tapi tgn skt sgt nk taip dah (hurmmmm nape ea tgn ni skt sgt?? adekah arthritis??) dah laa penat aa, smbg nanti ar nk tukar2...