MY 'OUTER SPACE'

Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an Iceberg
Waiting to change,
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like
the water,

All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same
Just like water

On comes the panic light
Holding on with fingers
and feelings alike
But the time has come
To move along

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're.... the other side of the world

Can you help me?
Can you let me go
And can you still love me
When you can't see me anymore

i love this song, i love the lyrics, somehow i love to know what is the lyricist trying to tell, a song is like a story to me~~

study time~~~


~1st time jalan dari ward ke resource centre (RC)~


~melalui padang dan juga hostel2 house officer/houseman/junior doctors, owh 'N'ku hehe~


~bilik seminar yg sgt best n sejuk n refreshing~


~MCQ, cis nie time dah nk dekat exam nye pasal~


~resource centre yg ntah pape(geram sbb internet takde, buku lambat letak aish)~


~err bilik seminar juga bilik rehat :P~


~lunch hour~

as some of u know, i did my paediatric posting in Hospital Sri Manjung, Perak..as the so-called-pioneer for the posting in Manjung, there were a lot of difficulties that we faced but in the end we manage to get through all of the difficulties and enjoy ourselves. Here are the pictures taken there(seriously i kind of losing my touch in blogging i guess hurmm)..


~with our lecturer neonatal paediatrician, Dr. Azlina~




~with HSM paediatrician, Dr Khairi~


~wif Datin Dr Chan, consultant paediatrician, HSM~

Omg its been quite sometimes snce I updated my blog. Act ths is my 1st attemp updatng the blog usng blackberry as its quite dffclt 2 get intrnt here in manjung,perak. There r a lot of thng going on with my life right now bt I dnt hve the tme 2 write evry single detail so I'll jst wrte the imprtnt thng only.

- I just finish my 2nd postng whch is intertnal medicine. Hurm I really do enjoy internal medicine despite all the stress in the hsptl.
- currently I'm doing my 3rd postng, paediatric whch means dealing wif kids n babies here in sri manjung hospital, perak. Argh I really dnt know hw 2 deal with babies espclly when they start 2 cry, its stressful..suprisingly the consultant, paediatrician n housemans r friendly n nice.

That's all 4 nw, I'll upload the pictures later k.

~ im so so so exhausteddddddddddddd today, ward round is like 4 hours standing, damn it's tiring...n i still got 3 cases to presnt, 8 case writes up to type, log book to fill, 4 weeks of reflective diary to do n most importantly, STUDY for the final exam which is next week.......ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhh i think im having palpitation plus shortness of breath rite now~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

oleh kerana terlalu muak untuk makan kat luar, ak bercadang nk masak untuk dinner..arghhh bosan laa mkn luar jerrr..(OGDS ak)..hurm ok back to the story, lately ak cm suke plak men masak2 nie haha penah tak mase dulu2 men masak2 bunga n daun???(ape tk pernah??sian ar sape yg tk pernah tu :P)..

nyway kat rmh mmg ade bhn2 cume tinggal nk bli daging cincang kat alamanda saje..erkk the problem is i cannot stand darah yg melekat2 kat daging tue n ayam ker ape ker, confirm ak OGDS haha so seb bek nana ader untuk memegang kan daging itu ke kaunter(ak almost OGDS di freezer tue sbb darah yg ozing out from daging tu, YUCKSSSS)--haha ak lebih rela disect mayat :P..nana ckp "aish bdk nie, nk kene cari suami yg pandai msak la mcm tue"..haha yes yes mmg nk cari chef pOwwnnn,:P~

then tdi oleh kerana ak memberanikan diri untuk membasuh daging itu smbil menahan nafas(hehe) luckily daging tu tak bau pun darah2, bagus btl daging tue bg kerjasama.. so here r the pictures~~~


(bahan-bahannye : 2 biji bwg putih, 1 biji bwg besar n daging cincang ramlee yg dibasuh bersih n di tos)



(rebus spaghetti tue smpai lmbut)



(tumis bwg)



(tadaaa perencah instant)



(wallaaa)



(alhamdullilah~)

Sometimes
I feel like im going out of
My mind,

Boy the way you do me is a
Damn crime,

But then you smile at me
And its allright,

With you there ain't no inbetween...

Everytime that i walk out the door
I tell myself i can't take it no more

Theres a part of me won't let you go
I keep sayin' yes when my minds sayin no..

Me and my heart we got issues
Don't know if i should hate you or miss you
Damn i wish that i could resist you
Can't decide if i should slap you or kiss you,
Me and my heart we got issues,issues,issues
We got issues issues issues.

Its awful, boy you leave me hangin for so long
You empty out my love until its all gone
You change the words but still its the same song
Im tired of the melody

Change my number and throw out your clothes
But my feelings for you, they still show
I keep building the walls round my heart
But then i see you it all falls apart...

Wanna fight it, can't hide it
Truth is i think i like it
But in future, illusion
Still i don't know which way to go.....

Me and my heart we got issues
Don't know if i should hate you or miss you
Me and my heart we got issues.....x