MY 'OUTER SPACE'

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

things that i achieve today :

1. manage to go to the SDJO without being lost
2. manage to get back home from SDJO using the correct roads(finally, after so many attempt)
3. manage to drive kat 'jalan ular'(perghh best seyhh, nak 'drift' lagi)
4. manage to buy spaggetti at pizza hut(which masih ader dlm esbox n tak bersentuh coz umi masak spaggetti gak..tahniah)
5. manage to NOT buying any shoes(tgk pun tidak tau sob sob)
6. manage to survey the clothes price(hehehehe i think it's time but wait till this thursday for the sale)~hey ive been very good okay for not sopping anything..
7. manage to buy a novel, 'If u could see me now' by cecelia Ahern..(sigh kenape lah jadi rambang mata ble nk beli novel erghhhhhh)

i hate it, i mean really really really REALLY HATE it when people ask me to do something i DO NOT want to..do u understand me?? do i make myself clear?? so shut ur big mouth pleaseeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! if u cant stand it, just get out of my life or my way, watever~

tq 4 ur cooperation~

okay skng smbung lagi part 2,(act malas nk citer panjang2 so just describe gune gmbr jer la ea)..


petang hari..


~wehee~


~Mr. Ravi sdg bg briefing pada ahli persatuan pekak bisu Malaysia~


~baby yg sgt comel~


~check in..hurm not bad, romantic tue hehe~


~luckly ader heater~

dinner malaysian deaf association.....
ha kalau nk tau diorng nie sme kreatif tau, diorng ader wat sketsa la, lawak gler, sme org 'gelak' excpt ak sbb ak tak paham..then majlis makan malam tue ak rase agak kurang teratur kot coz ramai yg tak dpt mkn n tempat tue panas kot..n mcm tkd isi sgt kot..n mcm susunan meja pun tk brp ok coz org tak dpt nk tumpu dkt pentas!!(sadly speaking, ak rase tersisih kat situ coz i cant communicate with the deaf community that well and so i really feel alone n homesick,seyes tk tipu) tapi bile ak pikir2 blk kan, cube pikir kalau mcm mane agakknye perasaan org yg deaf tue berada di tgh2 org2 yg not deaf???mesti same cm ape yg ak rase kan kan..sgt2 muhasabah diri, so jgn la kte sisihkan mereka, diorng tue normal cume ada kekurangan di situ, tapi kte yg normal nie pun ader kekurangan jugak kan kan, so equal...semua org sama n patut dilayan cam biasa..okay!!

someone send me a song call 'love you till the end' by pogues..time dgr2, skali ak pikir mcm lah pernah dgr tpi tak bother sgt sbb lgu cm tak best jer n hayati lirik pun cm gitu2 jer..the 2nd time dgr rase mcm btl2 familiar lah, tapi di mana ya?..pastu dgn tak puas hati, ak pun google carik lirik 1st then bukak youtube..skali jeng jeng jeng duhhhhh lagu dlm cite p/s i love u..trus sebak ea dgr lagi skali hehe sbb smbil tgk video clip citer tue..sob sob sedey wa ckp sama lu citer tue gua tangkap nangis beb(erk nape ak ckp dh mcm gengstr ni? well effect ngntuk nie)..citer tue best tapi sedey arrrr..eh k wa chau dulu ar, ngntuk bangat!!!

p/s...guess what!!(ske sgt ble hillary swank tue ckp bnd ni last2 skali)

well act mmg takde mood btl nak tulis cause i've been sick these past few days(sore throat + fever + body ache = tido, tido n tido cam sleeping beauty jer cume hilang la sgl beauty pun, ader ker??)..n back to the story, act shashu la nie yg cam nk tau sgt jer ape gua wat kat melaka ituhari smase kejohanan futsal persatuan orang2 pekak dan bisu Malaysia..so here it is...

act Mr. Yazid a.k.a my boss invited me to go along with the SDJO(stands for Society of deaf people in Johor)to the futsal tournament in Malacca, so i was okay with it as Mr. Yazid said, i can see for myself how they, the deaf society organize such event and along the way i may improve my sign language by mixing around with the deaf society. I must say that the trip really opens up my eyes and my mind to everything and it is a new experience for me.

(perghh ngntuk btl time taip nie)

hari sabtu tue, berkumpul dpn stadium larkin..only hanim and me who are not deaf there. frankly speaking i kind of think that oh my gosh, what the hell am i doing here standing like a lamp post,seriously i was starting to panic a bit as i dont know all the SDJO members and i cant even communicate with them cause im still new and i dont know how to use sign language that much(sigh ak hanya mampu tersenyum)while hanim is busy checking the SDJO members(btw hanim is the interpreter and she is incharge in handling the SDJO members). then there is this one girl who try to communicate with me and guess what, i misinterpreted her sign and as a result they all think that i am Hanim's sister. then naik bus politech jaybee sbb diorng pun hantar satu team ngn lecturernye skali. perjalanan mengambil masa lebih kurang 4 jam kot sbb byk kali berhenti and sampai2 dlm kul 12 lebih camtu kat hotel Farmosa Malacca.


(farmosa garden hotel..jgn silap ea,bukan A'famosa hotel yer)


(hotel ni terletak dalam kampung and tepi laut)


(blakang tue laut)

ngntuk la so smbg lagi kay!!

bye bye :

M.A.X.I.S

aloha :

C.E.L.C.O.M

fiuhh kene puasa laa nmpaknyer pasni, puasa ape??puasa shopping baju n kasut, puasa msg, puasa call n ext!!!!sigh inflasi~